I just thought...

I cannot stand when someone talks about the way you feel. They may say "why be depressed" or "Why be mad?" or "Get over it"... I will listen to those words when you understand the way I feel. I would express the way I feel to you, but I am pretty sure you wouldn't understand. You may never know that being my age, Muslim, woman, and black growing up in this time is rough. You may not know my life or understand me. So therefore, I will sit and listen to you say things such as "Why be hurt?" or "It is not that serious"... I want you to remember that next time you're in pain. Next time someone breaks your heart, disrespects you, crushes your dreams, or lies on you. I want you to say to yourself, "Get over it" or "Why be mad" or "Stop crying" Then... You may come back to me and say those things. Once you have understood My Pain, THEN you may come back to me and say those things!!!!

The Way I have conditioned myself!

I woke up to the sound of a child screaming because they did not get their way. As I struggled to go back to sleep I realized that one day this will be my everyday reality. If I plan on being a mother someday. This will be my reality. I thought about how I have conditioned myself to sleep when there is noise around. It is almost to the point where I cannot sleep unless I am surrounded my noise. But what can you do?
Often times in life, we complain about what we wish could be. And what we think should have been. But if you take a step back and realize that things are not always what they seem and that it is not up us, we will learn to be at peace what comes our way. I may not like present circumstances, but I must always remember, this is life. Life is full of discomfort simply because it is not paradise!