Afraid to be Muslim?

Afraid to be Muslim?
Why Must We have to hide?

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

I think that people need to be honest with themselves, the "HipHop artist" are simply tools and puppets or vessels for the government to pump whatever nonsense they want into the masses of people. So really, if parents don't want their children to be greatly influenced by what they hear, they need to teach and educate their children. HipHop used to be about empowering the weak and poor, now it is about material wealth. Maybe, it is time for people to take responsibility for their families...
Why is it that people never want to take responsibility for their things? We cannot continue to blame "The Media" for our faults within the household. Yes, it is true that the media often influences a lot of ill behavior. At the same time, parents should realize that their opinions and views about the world are greatly influenced by their household experiences. If a child is raised around nothing but fighting, arguing, and smoking weed, obviously when they hear a song that talks about the pain of growing up in that household, the child can relate. In retrospect, when a child hears a song glorifying smoking weed, they will be more likely to smoke weed because it is all they see at home. So who really should we blame?
Realize that the media will always be full of dirty tricks to suck youth into a self-ish, materialistic, egocentric, self-degrading mindset. So, it is the parents who should educate their child rather then try to change the Whole world! We have to be realistic!

Monday, August 23, 2010

Afraid to be Muslim?

Why Must American Muslims have to hide? This is our home too. This is where I am from. And If I am not mistaken, I was dragged here. My ancestors were dragged here for some fools misfortune and laziness. So Why must I leave now? I am from here too. This is my home. If you kick me out, I will be homeless. Like you, you and you, I have the right to freedom of speech, religion and to work at any place I choose regardless of wearing hijab. As far as I'm concerned the very same people who screamed justice and liberty, are the very same people who are stripping innocent people of that very same thing. Why must Black American Muslims be afraid of who they are? You're jealous of who I am, and I know this. I thank the lord that my people have made it out of 439 years of BRUTAL Slavery, and are still rising. I am thankful to the Lord that my Muslim brothers and sisters in less fortunate countries continue to push even though they have nothing left. These are strong people you're disposing of, and the only reason you do it... Is because you envy us. So to my Muslim brothers and Sisters, and to my Black American brothers and sisters. Keep pushing and keep fighting, Because the Lord will soon take care of us! :)

Sunday, June 20, 2010

I just thought...

I cannot stand when someone talks about the way you feel. They may say "why be depressed" or "Why be mad?" or "Get over it"... I will listen to those words when you understand the way I feel. I would express the way I feel to you, but I am pretty sure you wouldn't understand. You may never know that being my age, Muslim, woman, and black growing up in this time is rough. You may not know my life or understand me. So therefore, I will sit and listen to you say things such as "Why be hurt?" or "It is not that serious"... I want you to remember that next time you're in pain. Next time someone breaks your heart, disrespects you, crushes your dreams, or lies on you. I want you to say to yourself, "Get over it" or "Why be mad" or "Stop crying" Then... You may come back to me and say those things. Once you have understood My Pain, THEN you may come back to me and say those things!!!!

The Way I have conditioned myself!

I woke up to the sound of a child screaming because they did not get their way. As I struggled to go back to sleep I realized that one day this will be my everyday reality. If I plan on being a mother someday. This will be my reality. I thought about how I have conditioned myself to sleep when there is noise around. It is almost to the point where I cannot sleep unless I am surrounded my noise. But what can you do?
Often times in life, we complain about what we wish could be. And what we think should have been. But if you take a step back and realize that things are not always what they seem and that it is not up us, we will learn to be at peace what comes our way. I may not like present circumstances, but I must always remember, this is life. Life is full of discomfort simply because it is not paradise!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Just one of those days...

It has been a while...

And like I said before, I been busy... But this time I have another tone. I am feeling worried, over whelmed, and hurt. I wish I could close my eyes and wake up on another dementia where I can finally relax. I am tired of always having to help people, at the same time, I want to help. Why is the world covered in UGLY Selfishness, where No one is interested in helping the next man. What about my feelings? What about my exaustion. I AM TIRED!!! Does any body care? Are you all just going to run me into the ground until my gas tank is on E... Because that is where it is headed... A gas tank on E that you can NEVER refill. If you dont get the metaphor then take you time to contemplate...

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Public School, Private School, or Home School

Now, Now!!! I know I haven't been on here in a while... But let me explain. To those who have decided to follow, and those who do not follow. I want you all to know I apologize for not regularly posting! :)

The subject I would like to discuss is schooling. This is a big deal to me because the children are our future and we cannot simply place them anywhere. speaking from personal experience, I know that Public school is a place where you meet many different people from different backgrounds. Some peoples parents are more wealthy than others. Some homes are more stable than others. So it is more likely to come across some corrupt people in the public school system. In private school(Depending on where you go). People may be rich, or poor, or very religious. Some people put their children in private school in order to reduce their childs encounters with crazy people or bad education. Then, there is homeschool. Some people choose this route in order to reduce the chance of any mess all together...

My personal opinion, based off of personal experience. Public school is a situation where you must enforce strictly at home in order for your children to be able to oversee the social challenges. The same with private school. Anytime you take a bunch of unruly, "corrupt" or unstable people and mix them with people who have pure intentions. It is very likely that you will come across some confusion. The only reason why people simply reject home school all together is because they worry about their children socially. I disagree with that too. If your child is naturally gregarious, home school will not impede their ability to make friends. Two of my closest friends have been home schooled. And they never come off to me as odd or socially or developmentally delayed. The only reason I would not put my children in private school is because of the lack of opportunity there may be in the extra curricular area. The only reason I would not put my child in a public school is because there are certain teaching styles and methods I do not agree with. Along with what is written in the text books.
I myself went to private and public school, and I can say that I never know what I would do when I have children of my own...

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Blood Diamond

Today, I watched the movie in titled "Blood Diamond". I cried at the end. Not because of the ending, or because of the things I saw in the movie, but because it is still going on today. And it is happening to my Muslim brothers and sisters. Why is it that in my country, movies are made about the very thing that is happening to the Muslims in Iraq, but people cannot see it? Children, Mothers, Fathers, Teachers, and Doctors are being unjustly killed everyday.It is sad no matter who is being killed, but we must also speak. I do not want to be one of the many who are blinged by what I am seeing on television. I definetly do not want to be one of those people who fear and hate Muslims because I think they are opressive or oppresed, and depressed, and destressed. I am a Muslims. And I am proud of it. A Muslim is one who submits his will completely to Allah and no one else. So yes. I am a Muslim and I would not have it any other way. I love making 5 prayers a day. I love the fasting in the month of Ramadan. I have a great love for those who follow the religion. So yes, it hurts me to see movies where innocent children, mothers, fathers, teachers, doctors, and INNOCENT PEOPLE. are being unjuslty killed.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

The Devils Advocate...

Has you ever witnessed something knowing it was wrong but had sympathy. Like, you see your friends doing reckless things such as having premarital sex, or lying to their parents. These are things that are obviously calls for help. So when you see someone doing something wrong, try not to look down at them so easily. Sometimes, you just do not know what they may really have on their chest.

I know, Im being the devil's advocate. But I feel very sorry for people when I see them wondering aimlessly around town with people who do not care for them. Or when a woman compromises her luster, value, and self-confidence just for some idiot to hit it and quit it. And when a man sleeps with different women through out the week just to feel important. Isn't life about compassion? Why should I hate those people? I should help those people. Instead of looking down, I should raise THEM up. Some people are troubled and they do not know. That is why it is important for me to be good to them. Because someday they will see they are worth so much more.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Beginning to count My Blessings!!!

On Sunday January 17th, I fed the homeless at my local Masjid (Place of worship ex.Church)As I looked at all the people passing through the line with hungry helpless looks on there face, I noticed how thankful I felt. I knew that at anytime all my blessings could be snatched away. I knew that I could lose my family, my home, my freinds, or my dignity. Im so thankful for my life. I am thankful that I do not live in a war stricken country with mines stuck in the ground in random places. I know that I am lucky to have an education and an opportunity to meet people.

I pray that I do not take any chance for granted. I pray that I can meet the next trial with faith and perseverance. Ameen...

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

A few things that have been on my mind...

I know it is kinda random, and I dont get on often unless I have something to say. But I do believe this is important because I have been thinking this for a while now. I know that once my friends and family read this they will be very curious as to what goes on inside of my mind.

First I would like to say. I love my Religion, My Family, and My Friends. But within my religion I do not appreciate those who slander Muslims, and make Islam look bad. And within my family, I do not appreciate the people constantly searching for me to mess up so that they forever have a story about the time I slipped up. And within my friends, I do not appreciate those who are constantly waiting for me to slip up and say the wrong thing, simply for their own entertainment. It is so painful from day to day not knowing who to trust, or when to talk about my feelings. I have this blog in order to speak without an interuption. I get so tired of people asking for me to tell them my feelings and be honest but once I do that, they shut my down.
I notice this behavior often in women. I do not know whether it is because I choose to speak my honest opinion, or whether I choose to be happy. Whatever it is, people dislike it, and they try to shut me down. In the beginning of this blog, I stated that I do not appreciate people who slander Muslims and make the religion look bad. And what I mean by that is the crude behavior such as waiting for someone to mess up and think of way to break them down. Islam is a religion of peace and balance, but if we have people who misrepresent it to a world that wants us to die, then how can we spread the word of beauty? As I mentioned my family. I should be able to come to my family is love and the feeling of support. Instead I often feel like I have to sugarcode things simply to protect their feelings. But would they do the same for me? I feel like this is one of the problems in this world. People do not know how to care and trust and listen to those who truly do care for them. As for friends. I would always hope that I keep decent people around. But I would say a decent person is not someone who pressures me to do something after I repeatedly said I do not want to do it. Or then attempt to make me feel bad for not wanting to do that bad thing.

Lately I've also been thinking...
I am an ambitious person who has many dreams of becoming a mother, a chef, a business woman, a wife, but most of all someone who devoutly serves Allah(God). I strive each day to make these things become a reality. Even if this means one day or two I sit and do nothing but think. I want to be a GOOD Mother, I want to be a good Wife. I pray everyday That Allah gives me true faith. And while I strive for these things, I somehow feel like it is getting harder and harder to achieve... But at the same time, I have never been at so much peace in my entire time living... I dont know what to think.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Watch your attitude!!!

Many times when someone has something going on in there life they may hold an attitude. This can become a problem because sometimes we may feel like the world revolves around us. We may think that nothing more matters in the world but our own feelings. And this simply is not true. While you have a bad day, you may run across someone else who is having a bad day like yourself. If you both are having a bad day than most likey you will get into an altercation.

Some people aren't patient enough to walk away. So my message is to try to control your attitude when having a rough time.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

What I hope for in a man!

In my pursuit to finding a good husband, I hope for him to be beautiful. Beauty is not only the physical. Many people get caught up in the physical early. They may think... He has to be easy to look at of course. But to be honest, I've seen more physically beautiful ugly men than Ive seen physically ugly beauty...

1) I Hope for my future husband to love Allah(God) before anything else. Because if he loves God, he will treat me with respect and kindness.
2) I hope for my future husband to be smart. Bookwise and streetwise.
3) I want him to be supportive.

Im sure there are things that I want but I am not aware of yet... But all I can say is God has my best interest! I wont rush, unless I feel the time is right. I wont go too slow unless I feel the time is right. Im not saying I feel like I know everything for myself, but you know how you have the feeling in the pit of your stomach? You know how you just know when the time may be right for something? I pray that when the time comes I will know it!!!

Monday, January 4, 2010

The reasons I Love Islam!

Writing blogs is a new pasttime to me. I love making youtube videos expressing my opinions. But I never thought of writing a blog. This blog will be about why I love Islam. Because lately, I have had alot on my mind. Islam, my future career, my future family, and my goals in life. I realized that I am the happiest I have ever been in life. I asked myself why?

Since this past month of Ramadan, I have been striving to make all my prayers, and make them all on time. I have been striving to study and read more about Islam. I am young and I am faced with the many questions about my purpose to life. So I have been studying more Quran, and other scriptures. Right now, I am the happiest I have ever been in life. It wasnt easy to make it here, but I am soooooo Happy! I am growing, learning, and living. People who claim to hate Islam try to force their opinions on me by telling me that Im not happy. But how can they possibly say that? Im happy because I make my prayers, I strive to enjoin in right and forbid in wrong. That is the reason why I am happy. I love Islam because to me, TRUE Islam is the key to being happy. Not someone's culture, not someones ideas. TRUE Islam. The kind of Islam that allows me to worship none other but GOD. That is the reason I love Islam.